Time to Confess

I Confess... Ty's biopsy came back begnin and her incision mark is healing nicely.

I Confess... She had 4 boys out front of our house visiting with her when I got home from work yesterday. Kinda freaked me out.

I Confess... I taught the Stars class on Wednesday night, by myself. Was a little nervous but we all survived.

I Confess... I am going on a motorcycle ride tomorrow. It's to benefit the police officer we lost in January. The ride is called "Whiskey 12", which was his radio name. It will go from our HD dealership, up through the canyon, stopping at SnowBasin, and then down the other side of the mountain, ending at the cemetary where he is buried for a ceremony. After that we will take the bike home and go to Brewski's for the afterparty for drinks, raffles, and music.

I Confess... I have 3 weeks until Guatemala. I am not nervous for the trip, I am nervous about packing. I am sure I am going to forget something and its not like I can run to Wal-mart while I am there to pick it up. That's going to be strange.

I Confess... I am in a video that is going to be aired on Sunday at church promoting our trip. I HATE seeing myself on things like that. I thought I was going to puke while we were taping it. Ugh!

What are you confessing?

The Book of Psalms

The Life Project: Psalms
Candice Roberts

Complaining…. Can I just say I hear a lot of it? I have four boys and a husband and I work as a psychiatric nurse. So believe me when I say, that my ears sometimes literally close up when I hear complaining. One of the funnier complaints I had heard in a while came from my 6 year
old, Owen. He told me that his brother Cael was downstairs in the basement hurt. Well, I had
JUST heard Cael playing his drums in the basement. Plus, I know Cael, if he was hurt, I would
have heard a lot of screaming. But to appease Owen, I just said, “Oh yeah?” “Yes, he is hurt.”
Big Pause…. I did not have the energy for this…… “Well aren’t you going to go down and
check on him? That’s what a real mom would do.” So I am not a real mom. That little fact may
come in handy one day, I am holding onto it.

Truthfully, if I think I hear a lot of complaining, I just need to consider our God. How much
complaining do you think He hears? How many times have I complained to Him? I have lost
count. I do know that I am in good company with many of the men and women of the Bible. In
fact over one third of the book of Psalms are psalms of lament, or complaining.

We can learn some valuable lessons from the book of Psalms. The first of which is that God is
not afraid of our complaining. Unlike me, His ears do not close up when we bring our
complaints before Him. And He always has the energy for us. Psalm 6:9 says, “The LORD has
heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer. “ Psalm 34:17 “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;he delivers them from all their troubles.” Psalm 116:1 “I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;he heard my cry for mercy.”

The second lesson we can learn is that there is no true worship without the wilderness. In
Exodus chapter 7 the Lord tells Pharaoh, “Let my people go so they can worship me in the
wilderness.” God intends for us to worship in the wilderness of our life. In many of the psalms we see that it is the wilderness, those seasons in our lives that are full of complaints, which bring us to a place of worship before God.

Psalm 63 says,You, God, are my God,earnestly I seek you;I thirst for you,my whole being longs for you,in a dry and parched land where there is no water.

It is in the wilderness that we become desperately aware of our need for God. It is here that we learn our only hope is in the Lord. This brings us to the third and probably most important lesson that can be learned in the book of Psalms- the power of God’s presence. There is one thing that God wants most from us;relationship, intimacy. And this thing that God wants most is the thing that we need most. We need God’s presence. I heard someone say once that we need God’s presence more that we need His provision. In the book of Psalms, the people of God are constantly facing difficult circumstances. War, famine, murder, enemies of all kinds; when the people cry out with various laments, they are always answered with God’s presence. God does provide. He does heal. He does deliver. To be sure. But the real answer to our complaints is not what God can do for us, but who God is to us.

It is interesting to me that God almost never answers our prayers in the way we think or wish He would. But He always answers prayers with His presence. And in the end, His presence is
enough. If we had nothing else, His presence is enough.

In Your presence is fullness of joy; Psalm 16:11 Do not cast me away from Your presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Psalm 51:11 Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? Psalm 139: 7 The mountains melt like wax at the presence of the LORD, at the presence of the Lord of the whole earth trembles. Psalm 97: 5 When my enemies turn back, they shall fall and perish at Your presence. Psalm 9: 3 Tremble, O earth, at the presence of the Lord, at the presence of the God of Jacob. Psalm 114:7 Surely the righteous shall give thanks to Your name; the upright shall dwell in Your presence.Psalm 140: 13

So bring your complaints before God- He is big enough. And be prepared to be met with His
presence as He walks with you through your wilderness. “Yea, though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil: For thou art with me” Psalms 23:4

Psalms Reading Plan
Monday -Psalms 1-25
Tuesday -Psalms 26-50
Wednesday -Psalms 51-75
Thursday- Psalms 76-100
Friday -Psalms 101-125
Saturday-Psalms 126-150

Destination: Guatemala

One month from now I will be loving on the people of Guatemala.

I am excited... And little nervous... And happy... And blessed. I was able to earn more than my amount to go. I had some wonderful people donate to my cause. I was surprised by a few, which goes to show how God played into this all.

Now it's time to start packing... Got my lice-prevention shampoo (yikes!), got my hat and hiking shoes. Gotta borrow a big suitcase b/c I'm not sure mine is big enough. Time to stock up on batteries for the camera. I pray God not only works in me to serve these Mayan people, but uses me to photograph his creation. I want to be able to show people at home what Guatemala looks like.

I am asking for prayer... Safe travels, life changing experiences, safety in this forgien country, for my family that I leave behind, for the people we're ministering to, for the people I'm serving with... The list goes on and on. I feel that God has called me to this mission, to serve his people, so I'm not really worried or scared (as a lot of people ask me, I'm just really excited :)

The Song On My Heart

I Lift My Hands lyrics
Songwriters: Christopher Tomlin;Matt Maher;Louie Giglio



Be still, there is a healer
His love is deeper than the sea
His mercy, it is unfailing
His arms are fortress for the weak

Let faith arise
Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

Be still, there is a river
That flows from Calvary's tree
A fountain for the thirsty
Pure grace that washes over me

Let faith arise
Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever


I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise, let faith arise
Open my eyes, open my eyes
Let faith arise, let faith arise
Open my eyes, open my eyes

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God, forever

And I lift my hands to believe again
You are my refuge, You are my strength
As I pour out my heart
These things, I remember
You are faithful, God
You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise
Let faith arise

Book of Job

The Life Project: Job
Matt Roberts

I am not a fan of cemeteries. In fact I might think it a little strange for those of you that are! It's not that I am afraid or even weirded out by them. To me it is just sad. Each tombstone represents a grieving family. A mom and dad wishing they had a chance to know their baby daughter. A lost widow whose life will never be the same again. Horrific tragedies, terrible diseases and unexplainable accidents. You will find simple tombstones that represent all a family could afford. Sad. Or maybe ornate memorials fit for a king. Just as sad. All those tears, all of that time and effort and in the end the story that is told is a story of death. There is nothing exciting about death for us who are still living. There is no glory in the grave. Nope, I am not a fan of cemeteries at all.

In the 18th Book of the Bible we read of the story of Job. Job had a great life! He had an adoring family whom he had the privilege of working beside every day; joyous dinner tables overflowing with life, a full house and a full heart. Job was also a healthy man. Even in his later years in life he was able to do the things he was passionate about doing, go where he desired to go. Isn't it funny the everyday things we take for granted? From the outside looking in Job had it made. Money, influence and power made him someone that everyone else looked up to. How great life would be if you could be like Job!!

Oh how fast things can change. Satan took notice of Job's charmed life and unleashed the fury of hell upon him. In what must have seemed like mere moments the tombstones began to pile up around Job. First catastrophe struck his livelihood. When our identity is caught up in our stuff it is an easy target, and in a moment Jobs foundation began to crumble. Next Job received word that his kids were all killed in a horrific accident. Is there anything that hits closer to home than our children? And finally Job’s health was stricken. In a second he became powerless against even his own body.

On every side Job was surrounded by death. I imagine this is much how the disciples felt on the day of our Lord’s death. Their friend, their leader, their Savior was ripped from their sides. He was mocked, beaten, humiliated and ultimately crucified. When Christ died, the disciples probably lost hope. I am sure they lost the confidence that they once had in God. Jesus was supposed to be the Messiah, and now he was dead. They were faced with a tombstone.

Imagine too what it was like for the disciples on Easter morning. Imagine going to the grave and being told by an angel, no less, that Jesus was not there, that he had risen. What would you feel? Disbelief, hope, joy? I think above all I might feel a sense of victory. Where there had been death, there was now life. Never before in history had there been victory over death.

We do see a glimpse of this victory in the book of Job. Job 42:12-13 says, “The LORD blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the former part. He had fourteen thousand sheep, six thousand camels, a thousand yoke of oxen and a thousand donkeys. And he also had seven sons and three daughters.” We see that God restored Job. But the death was still there. The children that Job lost did not come back. The grief and heartache he felt were still with him. There was restoration, but not victory. The good news of Jesus is that God wants to give us both. The death and resurrection of our Savior allows us both restoration and victory.

There are three dictionary definitions of victory
1. Defeat of an enemy or opponent. Isaiah 54:17 says, “No weapon that has been made to be used
against you will succeed. You will have an answer for anyone who accuses you. This is the inheritance of
the LORD's servants. Their victory comes from me," declares the LORD.
2. Success in a struggle against difficulties or an obstacle. Romans 8:37-39 says, “No, in all these things
we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life,
neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor
depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ
Jesus our Lord.”
3. The state of having triumphed. Colossians 2:15 says, “And having disarmed the powers and
authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.”
Victory over Satan, victory even when you face hardships and struggles, a victorious attitude because
you know that Christ has already triumphed by the cross; God intends for you to have all of these today!


Reading Plan for Job
Monday- Job 1-7
Tuesday- Job 8-14
Wednesday- Job 15-21
Thursday- Job 22-28
Friday- Job 29-35
Saturday- Job 36-42

Friday Confessions

I Confess... that I totally suprised my husband last week when we were at Harley-Davidson. He had no idea why we were there and when we walked past Parts, I said "How about going to order your pipes since we are here?". He about fell over. It was so worth it.

I Confess... I just booked hotel rooms for Vegas in September. It's my husband's 40th birthday. We are going to celebrate :)

I Confess... My girl had a growth removed from her head this week. I'm a little nervous and praying it's not cancerous. I wont find out until next week what the biopsy says.

I Confess... my son moved up a rank in Royal Rangers. He was the only one in his class. He also got all the badges from this quarter. Way to go Drew. So proud of you!

I Confess... I am heartbroken over this kid from church. He bought a motorcycle last Friday and hours later was going to get a helmet and ended up being hit by a car. The medical staff said he needs a miracle to survive. Well, our God is still in the business of miracles b/c the latest update I've heard is that he's responding to people now. I know he's still got a long way to go but Praise God!!

Everyone have a wonderful Easter weekend.

The Book of Esther

The Life Project: Esther
Candice Roberts

A lot of my friends have been going through a hard time lately. They have been facing things that are difficult, seemingly insurmountable obstacles. They have faced tragedies, difficulties, circumstances beyond their control. And I know that many of them are wondering, “Where is God?” I know they are wondering this, because I have wondered this when I have faced my own difficulties.

Four years ago last December, I drug Matt to the emergency room. He had been feeling sick for months, but that weekend, he didn’t even have the strength to lift his head off the pillow. The ER doc told us the news, Matt was in kidney failure; he had only about 5% function left. I remember at the moment thinking that God would work a miracle. But as my husband continued to suffer and the doctors continued to be baffled by his decline, I wondered if God had forgotten about us. Here we were struggling church planters with 3 little boys. We were on God’s team, doing His work, so why hadn’t He come through? Why hadn’t He rescued us? What could possibly be taking Him so long? Was God absent?

The book of Esther, I believe, is a book about a seemingly absent God. Do you know Esther is the only book of the Bible where the name of God isn’t mentioned? Read it, God is NOT in there. Now believing that the Bible is the inspired Word of God, infallible, we must believe the author of Esther left God out on purpose. Many scholars believe it was a literary tool that was used to accentuate the point of the book. The point being, when God is unseen, He is still at work providing for His people.

Think of the ways God provided for His people in the book of Esther. First of all He gave Esther favor in the eyes of the King when Xerxes was looking for a new wife. God put His gal in the game. Then when Mordecai saved the King, customarily he would have received a reward. But God caused the King to forget Mordecai’s reward so that it could be issued later when it would be most needed. Next God allowed Esther favor when she went before Xerxes unrequested. Esther should have been put to death for her requests, but instead she was honored. Then when Mordecai was set to be murdered, God caused the King to remember that he had yet to honor him. When the Jews were on the verge of annihilation, God provided a way of salvation. When you know the end of the story, it is easy to see the ways that God has provided.
But let’s not forget that the characters in Esther were people like you and I, and they did not know how the story would end. Esther was ripped from her home and given as a wife to a violent and vile man. Her uncle’s murder was being plotted and her loved ones were being persecuted. She was taking risks that might end in her death and she was given no assurances. It seemed a very bleak situation. Esther probably asked herself once or twice if God was absent. Mordecai probably wondered if God had abandoned them.

So how do we deal with our stories when we don’t know how they will end? How do we deal with the unpleasant, unexpected and unwelcome events of our lives? What do we do when God seems absent? First we must be honest with God, with others and with ourselves about the doubts we are facing.

Psalm 22:1-2 says
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish?
My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest.
These are words penned by King David when he was facing persecution and attempts on his life. It is interesting that these are also the words of Jesus as he is hanging on the cross. It seems not even our Savior escaped the feeling of being forsaken by God. It is natural to feel abandoned when we are going through our darkest trials. It is honest and human to express our doubt. I believe this is why the Bible includes passages of scripture like this Psalm.

Once we have been honest and cried out to God, we must be willing to accept God’s perspective. We have to remember that the end of the story, which is unseen, is still within God’s control. The apostle Paul after facing great persecution and attempts on his life says this in 2 Corinthians 4:16 -18; “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”

And finally, when we are facing trials, we must rest in Jesus and lean on God’s word. The following scriptures are good reminders about the grace and strength that Christ offers us. When we feel like God is absent, let us remind ourselves that He is near.
"The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18 "Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

If you are facing darkness today, facing unimaginable trials, remember that you are in good company. Esther, Mordecai, David, Paul, even Jesus faced trials and loads that seemed too difficult to bear. Remember also that you are living in the middle of a story. And what seems impossible to you now, God will somehow work for good in the end.

Suggested Reading For The Book Of Esther
Monday- Esther 1 and 2
Tuesday- Esther 3 and 4
Wednesday- Esther 5 and 6
Thursday- Esther 7 and 8
Friday-Esther 9 and 10