Time To Confess

I confess... I am irritated with my weight loss this week. I have worked my hardest, ate my best, and I am going up on the scale. I feel a little defeated. I hear alot of people say "that's b/c you are gaining muscle"... well, that's great, but until I see the scale going down instead of up I get upset.

I confess... I prayed this morning about this fitness adventure. It told God that I am going to keep at it, I am going to keep working hard b/c my goal is to be in top shape so I can best serve His people in Guatemala in a few months. If that means I dont look slimmer or go down a pants size, that's b/c I am supposed to look like I do... but I want my heart physically (emotionally and mentionally) to be healthy.

I confess... I tried my husband's Boom! supplement yesterday before the gym. I had a burst of energy and had my hardest workout on the Arc Trainer. I did it again today and thought I was going to die, but I pushed through and finished all 30 minutes. Phew, I am tired!

I confess... I got upset with my ex this week. This weekend is his holiday, he's known this for months and text me telling me he has to work on Saturday and on Monday so he decided not to take the kids. And for me NOT to call his family b/c I shouldnt burden them. Really? I think of my children as a blessing and a joy, not a burden. I know for a fact that they dont feel that way... I think there is only one person who does and that's him. It makes me sad. The good thing is my kids KNOW they are loved, regardless of that.

I confess... my ex also told me he is having surgery in March, right before the weekend he is supposed to have the kids. He told us this after he told us he isnt having the kids for President's Day and my daughter got mad and said, "Im calling Grandma". I told her to make sure Grandma knew it was her that wants to be there, not that I am asking for it b/c I am fine with them being home... so she calls her Grandma and says " My dad's having surgery and he wont take us that weekend... but you want us huh?". I could hear his mom say "Of course...we'll work out the details". I am so thankful for the people that my children have in their life and that they are mature enough to see passed the crappy parts.

I confess... my daughter is having a sleepover with a friend tonight and I am happy to have some time with Drewby. Even if he'd rather go to McDonald's than Cafe Zupa (which is what I am craving).

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Weigh In Wednesday

I think I am going to start saving my updates for Friday... because I allow my weekends for cheat days (maybe not being as religious about what goes in my mouth, but still by no means over doing it... as well as not going to the gym one of the two days) it takes a few more days to get in gear... so maybe I'll call it "Fitness Friday" or something instead :) One strange thing... and I dont know what to do about it... On Friday, I was down to my lowest weight so far. Saturday, I was up 2 pounds. I forgot to weigh on Sunday. Monday, I was up 5 pounds. WHAT?!? I bought a new scale thinking this one was malfunctioning... get it out of the box, set it up, and it tells me I am 2 pounds heavier than the old scale did. This is so discouraging to me. I can see a difference... I am eating well... I am at the gym every morning and increasing my excercise. It's just frustrating to me... so today, I didnt weight myself. I am frustrated at the moment and I took it out on the Arc Trainer this morning... I did 25 minute on that beast and feel fabulous so I am just going to focus on that for a bit and not worry what the poundage says for now. BUT... if anyone has any ideas, tips, suggestions I am open to hearing them.

Ty's First Dance

For about 3 years now, I've heard about this dance Ty is going to have when she is in 6th grade. She's been talking about it for that long... but as the time got closer, she wasn't as excited about it. She didnt like the idea of dancing with boys and wearing a dress. LOL Until she found out it is no longer a formal affair... it's an 80's themed dance :) Thank goodness Rue21 had a bunch of their neon, punk rocker stuff on sale for like $4/each. We got up early this morning to crimp her side ponytail and put on a rainbow of eye shadow. Of course, big hoop aqua earrings and pink glittery lipstick. The outfit was complete by a pair of leg warmers and big bangs.

Hope you enjoy your fun day... doing the "Cha Cha Slide" and not dancing with boys :)

Happy Valentine's Day my love.

I sent Bryan an email this morning wiht the top 25 reasons I love him. Thought I'd share: 25. When your arms are around me, I feel safe. 24. I love when you reach for my hand to hold. 23. I love that you take pride in your appearance. 22. I love when you sing songs from KLOVE on the radio. 21. I love that you take such an interest in what the kids have going on. 20. I love that you are good at math, b/c I sure am not! 19. I love that you are serious about becoming healthy. 18. I LOVE that you don’t chew anymore. 17. I love that you take me seriously when I tell you about things that bother me (respect) 16. You make me laugh. 15. You motivate me to be a better person. 14. I love going on the motorcycle together. 13. I love when you kiss me. 12. I love that you take such good care of the kids. 11. I love that you do the laundry and other chores. 10. I love when we have weekends alone together. 9. I love snuggling with you. 8. I love that you will let me pick the movies to watch, even though I am going to fall asleep 5 minutes later. 7. I love that you help me with my computer when I don’t know what I am doing. 6. I love that you know when I am stressed and do what you can to help. 5. I love that I can trust you. 4. I love that I can talk to you, about anything. 3. I love that you are getting to know Jesus. 2. I love that you got a matching tattoo with me. 1. I LOVE YOU!!! Happy Valentine’s Day my love. Bryan sent me these flowers to my work today. What a lucky girl I am!

The Book of Joshua

The Life Project: Joshua Pastor Matt Roberts The first words God speaks to Israel in the book of Joshua are "Moses is dead, now arise and go into the land I promised you!" After 40 years of wandering it was time. A new generation stood at the helm of a long awaited promise. God reminds them to let dead things lie and new things come alive in them. Many people see the book of Joshua as a book of battles, of which there are many, but we find hidden under the scenes of gruesome battlefields an old promise that has come alive in a new generation. 38 years earlier Joshua was a young man. He was chosen by Moses as the representing spy from his tribe to be one of the first 12 Israelites to enter the land of their forefathers. He crossed the Jordan River in front of an expectant nation. Joshua experienced the beauty of the land, probably allowed himself to dream of what it would be like to raise his family there and finally have a place to call his own. Maybe he even picked out a perfect place for a perfect home. The time had come for a wandering nation of former slaves to settle down. But something went terribly wrong. As Joshua and Caleb reported promise and vision for a new tomorrow their ten companions spoke with fear of giants and city walls and insurmountable odds. We know the rest of the story, Israel fearfully walked away from promise that day. For forty years Joshua walked a path of wandering he didn't choose. I wonder how many times he reflected on the things he saw as a spy. How many time did he think to himself, "things didn't have to be this way!". It is a sad thing to grow old knowing there was a better path, a sweeter life, greater promise that was just one different choice away. Now God is reminding Joshua's Generation that those things are dead. The old is gone and the new had come. It was time to reclaim the promises of Joshua's youth but three things had to happen first. The first is to make the choice to walk away from dead things. This was no insult to Moses or his impact as a leader. It was God making a statement to an entire nation saying the days of rebellious wandering are dead and gone, let THIS generation choose a different path! Just because you have wandered for so long doesn't mean you have to keep on doing it. Walk out of the wilderness and reclaim the promises of God! The next command is to be strong. The book of Joshua shows us that God's plans for us require action on our part. If the promised land was to be theirs they had a war in front of them. God promised to provide the victory, to fight on behalf of His people but first they had to find the strength to go! To find the strength to press beyond the fears of the unknown and allow God to be their victor. The third command we find in Joshua is to take courage. I believe courage and faith walk hand in hand. God was calling a generation to place courage behind their convictions. They were called to simply believe in God. Would they find the courage to step out and live great lives because of that belief? Would they leave behind the safety of the present and head into the fear of the unknown future just because God said so? Now that takes courage! God continues to call forth generations today. He is calling a people who are willing to walk away from the graveyards of their past with strength, unwavering determination and the courage to live out what they believe everyday! Will you be a part of a new Joshua Generation? If so, it is time to move! It is time to go places with God that have never been seen before! Look out world! Here we come! Suggested Reading Of Joshua Monday, 2/13/12 - Joshua 1-4 Tuesday, 2/14/12 - Joshua 5-8 Wednesday, 2/15/12 - Joshua 9-12 Thursday, 2/16/12 - Joshua 13-16 Friday, 2/17/12 - Joshua 17-20 Saturday, 2/18/12 - Joshua 21-24

Time to Confess

I Confess... that I totally suprised my daughter last Friday. If you haven't been keeping up, I took her to AZ to see her Godmomma. She had no idea we were going, she didnt even know part of the plan until 4am Friday morning, and the rest of the plan when we got the the airport. It was so much fun!

I Confess... even though its been over 2 yrs since I've seen Angie, we always fall into where we were before. There is no lag time. There is no awkwardness. I think being friends with someone for the past 28 years allows you to do that. I am so blessed by her friendship.

I Confess... I felt guilty for leaving my boys home, so I loaded up on Groupons and DailyDeals so they'd have fun activities to do in our absence.

I Confess... I didnt go to the gym this morning. I couldnt get Mister Husband out of bed. I know I could have gone alone, but I wasn't feeling motivated. Now I feel bad... and want to go.

I Confess... I am down another pound or so on the scale this morning. Yay!

I Confess... I have a whole Valentine's date planned with my hubby tomorrow. Movie, Massage, and Sushi. I can't wait. I love spending time just the two of us!

Our Love Story

1. How long have you and your significant other been together? December marked 4 years.

2. How did you meet? {What's your "love" story?} December 28th, 2007 I got a text from a friend asking if I was seeing anyone. I kinda was at the time, but nothing serious. She asked if I could give a guy she works with my number b/c she thought he’d be perfect for me. Uh, sure… whatever. I wasn’t thrilled about it… I had gotten out of a terribly heartbreaking relationship about 18 months earlier and was very jaded by the thought of a boyfriend. We texted for a few days and met up for dinner at Iggy’s in Layton and then he ended up meeting up with my friends later that night to go dancing in SLC.

3. If married, how long have you been married? If not, is this the guy you hope to marry? {do tell} Yes, we got married in September 2008

4. If you are married, where did you get married at? Big or small wedding? We got married at the Valley of Fire State Park near Las Vegas. We’ve both been married before so it wasn’t a big ordeal. We had family and close friends come.

5. Do you have any nick-names that you call one another? Do share! Well… I call him Mister Husband, he calls me Wifey. Babe, honey, love… all those work too. With an occasional “dumbass”.

6. Name 3 things you love most about your honey. He loves my kids as they were his own. He cleans my house and does my laundry. He holds hands with me.

7. Tell us how he proposed? LOL… we were walking in SLC a few months after we started dating and he said “I could see us being married…” and I said only if I had enough beer. Just joking around… the joke went on for a few months until he asked my parents for their blessing and he proposed on my birthday.

8. Is he a flowers and teddy bear kind of guy for v-day, or strawberries, champagne, and rose petals? Hmmm…. Flowers, jewelry kind of guy. We are going to get a massage and out for sushi this year.

9. Are you a sunset dinner on the beach kind of girl, or pop a movie in and relax on the couch? Well, I tend to fall asleep the minute we put a movie in… so I like to go out. Dinner and an early movie… or something like that.

10. Tell us one thing you'd like to do with your significant one day. If you could do anything? Go anywhere? I love going to Vegas with Mister Husband. We always have a great time… Fat Tuesday drinks, little gambling, a lot of shopping, a lot of eating, just having a good time. In addition to that, I love going on Harley rides with him… up the canyon around the dam.

11. Tell us what you plan on doing on this Valentine's Day. I guess I answered this above… massages and sushi 

12. Are you asking for anything this Valentine's day? I asked for a Sterling Silver ring from JCP… not sure if he remembered. We’ll see!

13. Give us one piece of advice of keeping a relationship strong and full of love. Forgiveness… forgive little things, forgive big things. I’ve learned a lot from my previous marriage and relationships and forgiveness is something I’ve learned. Set expectations… discuss what you will and won’t tolerate. Communication is HUGE… talk about everything and anything. Kiss and hold hands as often as you can. Affection and words of affirmation are needed.

14. Show us a picture of what love means to you.