and TrueBlood... and Real Sex on HBO... and Thunder Down Under in Vegas... and the list goes on and on...
A year or more ago, I may not have cared as much about what I viewed. A year ago, I was watching things like TrueBlood intentionally and pushing my family and husband to the side to get my "fix" for an hour. I didn't view it as anything more than entertainment, but I still watched it and was hooked on the phase it became.
To me it wasn't pornography, it was just a captivating show. I've been in relationships in the past where pornography was an issue. I felt this was different. I've known people who's lives have been ruined by their addiction. I didnt realize until recently how big my stance was on pornography b/c I've realize how it can ruin marriages. I used to blow it off... now I stand up and make myself known when it's brought up. I've had very serious conversations with my husband about it. I realized that impact it can have on relationships and marriages and I am not comfortable with that anymore. I love God and value my marriage too much.
I am not completely sure when things changed, but somewhere along the road I realized that not what God wants of me. I totally have no desire to watch things that I was obsessed with before (before I couldn't imagine not being home at 7pm Sunday nights to see the next episode of TrueBlood) where this season I watched half of a show and haven't turned it on since.
I'm not judging you if you watched "Magic Mike" or you are reading "Shades of Gray", that's up to you. I'm assuming we are all adults and have the free will to choose as we see fit... however I am not going to watch it or read the series. I've come a long way in my walk with the Lord and its not something I have a desire to do anymore. That's God working in my life and leading me to His ways instead of my own.
Below is a bible verse my girls in mPact have memorized and how fitting is it for this situation!? I need to keep this in mind when the things of this world creep in. It's a good reminder that I am not of this world and God has bigger and better things for me.
Philippians 4:8, “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever
is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”