Monday, June 18, 2012

I HATE Cancer

About a week ago, I went on a rant on Facebook about how I hate cancer... Just to remind you of why... 4 years ago on Mother's Day, my mom was diagnosed for her 2nd time of having Breast Cancer. Since then, I've know people to have Melanoma, more Breast Cancer, other skin cancers, Hodgkin's Lymphoma, Thymic Cancer, etc. One of my dear friend's just lost her mom to lung cancer and I had to sit through a funeral for her on Saturday... I'd had enough.

This year on Father's Day, I had to hear my dad tell me he has cancer. This time it is Basal Cell Carcinoma and maybe Squamous Carcinoma. He had a spot off his back removed, a spot off his jaw removed, and is going in on Wednesday to have part of his ear removed. While this isn't a life threatening cancer, meaning it doesn't spread... it can be disfiguring and it's still cancer. There is a chance its in his jaw bone and if that's the case, he will probably need radiation but we are still waiting on the staging from the biopsy and more information from the doctor so we'll cross that road when we get there. He will forever have his body checked for new spots to cut off... Doesn't sound like a lot of fun to me.

He told me and my husband on Friday night at dinner... Yeah, I bawled in the restaurant and was on my face in tears at Friday Night Worship (I am so thankful for my sisters in Christ who prayed with me). Then told the rest of the family at a BBQ on Saturday and luckily by then I was able to gain some composure. Last night I had to tell my kids, who are extremely close to my parents. My daughter is the one I thought would have a melt down and it ended up being my son who did. When he hears cancer, he thinks of all my mom went through... surgeries, drains, chemotherapy, radiation, sickness, bald heads, etc. It was hard to explain the difference of this cancer compared to her breast cancer when I don't really know what to expect with this. The kids did tell me that their Poppie would look silly without his mustache so they will get him a fake one if he loses his hair :)

I pray for a cure to all cancers... I pray that no one else has to go through a holiday celebration telling their families that have this nasty disease. I HATE cancer.


becca said...

hugs and sending lots of positive energy your way

Tina said...

So so sorry! Sending lots of prayers your way!

Jolene said...

Oh, major major hugs! My Dad is battling cancer right now. He has Liver Cancer, untreatable. His Liver is so bad they can not even go in and do a biopsy to find out what stage he is in or he will bleed to death. He can't have radiation or regular chemo for the same reason. All he can have is chemo pills. It is just a waiting game right now. Last month they found spots in his lungs. Next month will be another CAT scan and we will see how much it has progressed or if the chemo pills kept the tumor from growing.

I feel the same way you do about this disease. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.